Okay so I'm back to bitch and bicker some more, big shocker eh? Well, this weekend was fucking awesome, from beginning to end. Checked out the local medieval fest and that was awesome, some stupid things happened but it was awesome. Sam had more fun than any of us combined though, poor guy. But enough about that. I swear God must really love ignorant and stupid people, I mean seriously, why else would he make so many? There are two things I can't stand, Stupid/Ignorant people, and Liars. Yes they get capital punctuation because I see them as races not personality traits. its like this "is he asian?" "oh no hes just a Liar." Ohh and there are even Ignorant Liars, boy are those fun. But anyway, is it okay to just give up on a friend when you know they are doing something so unbelievably stupid that its probably going to fuck up the rest of their life? But at the same time you know that its not going to mean Jack shit to them because they never listen to anything ANYONE says? I dont know if its ok or even morally condoneable, but im doing it.
So what do you call it when someone will do anything, and I mean do something they know is dumb just to spite what people tell them? Well folks I use a true scientific term called "dumbass". to describe these people. These people are everywhere, they may be posing as your best friends, but be wary, there just waiting for the ideal moment to spring and completely contradict everything you tell them, even when your right! I hate people like this, but I find that im constantly surrounded by Stupid people and Liars, its enough to make me wanna jump off a cliff...
So anyway, another thing thats messing with my head lately, I wrecked and totalled my car two weeks ago. Now I like to think I have an amazing capacity for dealing with things in the now. I didnt freak, I didnt cry, I didnt even go to the doctor until the next day for my leg which was swollen and bruised, which was very stupid. But I was totally calm, I can joke about it, Listen to my friends tireless banter about my driving skills...or lack thereof. But for the past two weeks I've been having nightmares, I'm not sure if this is some mechanism to deal with the crash, but I always wake up in the night sweating and out of breathe, still reliving a new accident. Sometimes I hit cars, or Deer, hell the other night I watched myself barrel straight into a building. I know dreams are your subconcious trying to deal with things that are giving you issues, but this is really freaking me out, I think this is the first time something has ever happened that kept haunting my dreams. I guess I just need to come to grips with the fact that I could have been killed if the other guy had had his brakes on. (according to state highway patrolmen, dont know what kind of medical background he has..but I assume he has some experience in the matter of car wrecks.) Maybe thats whats bothering me, I don't think I have ever had a near death experience, maybe this is just me waking up to the facts..."hey..dumbass, your not invincible so stop fucking around!" Hell I dont know, but this is getting pretty lengthy so I guess I'll just cut off the flow until a later date, Piece be with you my friends, and to my enemies, I wish you all burning fiery deaths in the pits of tartarus.
