moods..

So yeah, I'm kind of sinking into one of my moods again. One of those Leave me the fuck alone so I can brood moods. I don't really know why I guess I've just had a lot to think about lately. I'm changing so much so quickly it's scaring me, I don't feel the urge to spend so much time online, I can't stand being home, mainly because of the adults in my life, even my friends are changing. It's like just when my life got to a tolerable point, someone decided to shake it all around. You ever notice how, when your looking at a situation and you know almost nothing about it, it looks so great; and then you start gathering facts and suddenly you would just rather back away slowly and forget about it? well maybe you have but I see that all the time, theres no such thing as a normal relationship anymore; everyone has so much emotional baggage and they expect you to deal with it, I don't know how we do it.

But anyway, enough of that I can depress myself about that later. Why is it that every time a situation can get worse it always does, not only does it feel like I'm dieing inside, but I feel like it on the outside too. I woke up this morning and my throat had swollen almost completely shut, I could barely breathe, it took me two hours of gulping water and cough drops and even a lemon to get my throat to calm down enough for me to talk regularly.

So yeah, right now my life is sucking, at least sams here, if nothing else ill end up laughing my ass off before the days over.

And on this I shall leave on a qoute from a greenday song I'm sure you all know, and one that kind of describes how im feeling lately.

" I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone
Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone "