Dazed

This whole day has been, umm...confusing to say the least. It started like most of my days, with me getting yelled at, then I got some good news, a bright turn. Then it all kind of went downhill from there. I find myself becoming more Dazed the older I get, I always thought "It will make more sense when I'm older" now with the exception of females and sex nothing becomes clearer with age, its like I've watched my life become cloudier rather than clearer.

I guess this is normal and things will never make perfect sense to me, but simple things, friendships, relationships in general continually befuddle me and I can't help but wonder, what is normal interaction? does it change from person to person, I know there are things that I can say to some of my friends, mainly my male friends that I could never say to some of my female friends.

I joke, I'm perverted, I don't hide these things from people, but I do refrain around more sensitive ears. Does this mean I'm ahsamed of who I am? Should I have to do this? Why can't I just be me, around all of my friends, instead of just a select few? And how do I define just being me?

Who am I? Am I the perv that many of my male friends know so well? Or am I the sweet innocent guy that the girls like? Is there a mixture? Is that possible? Your guess is as good as mine....