Evolution
hmm, I'm moving my blog to here because I find this blogger to be much simpler and also more fun than my other one. Again I'm going to state as my opener, I will complain, I will bicker, you probably wont like some of my points, I'll ask you to please not make an idiot of yourself by leaving nasty comments, if you don't like something I say, move on to my next post or leave. Now I'm going to post something I've posted in my other blog, its something I just started writing and I ended up with a pretty deep little paragraph.
Life brings a new definition to the term pain. Not only will life knock you off your feet, it will kick you repeatedly in the ribs until blood sprays from your mouth and you feel the need to simply die. When I look back on several of the things I've been through, I wonder to myself.. "Why?" why did I endure, where did my strength come from? For that answer I look to those around me, my friends, my family, all of the people I surround myself with. I know now how much I used to lean on them, I realize this now because in this moment, my ultimate moment of need, none of them are here, I've driven them away. When you take away my friends, my family, the brick wall that closes off my heart, what are you left with? Just me? What would I be like? I'm scared to find out. What if I'm not strong enough for the trials that lie ahead of me? How can I find the strength ill need when my friends are gone, when I've pushed them all so far away that they don't know who I am anymore?What will become of me then? Reading this the answer seems so simple, drop the walls and let someone back in, but I don't think I'm prepared to do that. And perhaps, just perhaps I can find the required strength inside myself, wouldn't that be shocking? Is it possible that the Justin everyone is so fond of, the one that requires the help and support, what if he's really just frightened? frightened of the possibility he can stand alone, that he wont need anyone to help carry his burdens, that he could shoulder the weight of his own responsibilities and succeed?
Life brings a new definition to the term pain. Not only will life knock you off your feet, it will kick you repeatedly in the ribs until blood sprays from your mouth and you feel the need to simply die. When I look back on several of the things I've been through, I wonder to myself.. "Why?" why did I endure, where did my strength come from? For that answer I look to those around me, my friends, my family, all of the people I surround myself with. I know now how much I used to lean on them, I realize this now because in this moment, my ultimate moment of need, none of them are here, I've driven them away. When you take away my friends, my family, the brick wall that closes off my heart, what are you left with? Just me? What would I be like? I'm scared to find out. What if I'm not strong enough for the trials that lie ahead of me? How can I find the strength ill need when my friends are gone, when I've pushed them all so far away that they don't know who I am anymore?What will become of me then? Reading this the answer seems so simple, drop the walls and let someone back in, but I don't think I'm prepared to do that. And perhaps, just perhaps I can find the required strength inside myself, wouldn't that be shocking? Is it possible that the Justin everyone is so fond of, the one that requires the help and support, what if he's really just frightened? frightened of the possibility he can stand alone, that he wont need anyone to help carry his burdens, that he could shoulder the weight of his own responsibilities and succeed?
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